Have you ever felt your writing wasn't good enough?
Being an author is conundrum. Sometimes you feel you're working the world's greatest manuscript. Like your book is going to make a difference in somebody's world. Then you can take a glance over everything and decide it needs to either be put on hold or simply deleted altogether! Other times you're compelled to finish it but wonder 'What am I doing?'
It's like Chihuahuas and Huskies, you know? Oh- you don't? Being an author means working the big ideas, as well as the small and bringing them come together to create a perfect plot to a novel. Or not.
My son's been trying to convince me we should have a husky in the family, along with Magnus. Bad idea. Now both chihuahuas and huskies are full of energy and look tots fabu but they run so much deeper than looks. Sorta like the judging a book's cover...
They're good family pets but lousy guard dogs. But where does the writing come in? Well, the husky is that story that hits you, making your skin come alive with bustling, howling narrative. It's wild, leaves messes and you see the plot going everywhere in an explosive, unpredictable showdown. You either find yourself finishing it way too soon and under developed or berserk with tons of potholes and confusion.
The chihuahua is different. It's a story that begins small, simple and sweet. It has its bursts of activity and can be annoying but you're able to maintain normalcy. As you progress, you either get a story that kicks in Big Time or like chihuahua energy, it goes and goes until it finally crashes. LOL No lie- true story.
I love my Magnus. We have no Husky.
My first novel was the husky. I wrote it fast. It was bursting with segments that didn't properly come together. When I had it edited and proofread, I was given feedback that said it need more work but I had to have it done by a certain deadline. I was rushed and unprepared for the treatment they gave me. When the product was finished, I hated it. I was saddened by the experience and eventually unpublished the book.
I began to compare myself to other author's and felt inadequate. For a while I was defeated and near depressed. I'd written all my life and what I took from that first novel was dog-on exhausting. Comparison is depressing so I left it alone. I decided I do it again, on my own. I took on a stiff upper lip and carried on.
No when it comes to my writing, I deal in chihuahuas. I take on those bursts of inspiration by writing them in my book journal. If it's a new story, I add them to a brand new journal, keeping the stories separate. I write with patience, almost too much patience!
With my current novel, I kept going back and changing things, but not anymore. My new editor told me to cut that crap out. I'm moving forward and making amazing progress. My story is developing and I haven't quit. It's the chihuahua in this story- I'm not lying.
I feel like this book is jumping. My character has spunk and she's real and things keep happening to her. It's funny at times, serious and hopefully inspiring. I feel my new way of writing is the chihuahua of my style. It's going to work and I have a feeling this will be my best work to date.
I know it seems weird, but I compare my work to dogs because those are the breeds I'm currently dealing with. As much as my son has pleaded, we're never getting a husky. They're way too hard to control, like my writing used to be. But I am seeking education to improve my tail chasing. I'm happing to be running independently instead of with the big dogs too. Being a small fry is near to my heart.
Time to take a walk.
Who Am I?
My name's Alyssa and I'm just like you. Within me are stories, looking to be told. I do my best to relay them to the public, as magically as possible.